That feeling of genuinely caring for someone. Not because you have feelings for them, but because they really mean a lot to you.

That feeling of genuinely caring for someone. Not because you have feelings for them, but because they really mean a lot to you.

Change of perspective I’ve always wanted to get married and have kids when I get older, but recently I found myself not wanting those things anymore. It has nothing to do with kids, kids are awesome. It’s just that I feel like for most adults, it gets harder to live life when they’re responsible for another human being and even sometimes, the love they have for their spouse can change. I guess if I ever find my soul mate, I just want to live life, go on adventures, etc. with that person. Shoot I don’t know I might be just thinking nonsense lol. #what2amdoestoyourbrain

Change of perspective

I’ve always wanted to get married and have kids when I get older, but recently I found myself not wanting those things anymore. It has nothing to do with kids, kids are awesome. It’s just that I feel like for most adults, it gets harder to live life when they’re responsible for another human being and even sometimes, the love they have for their spouse can change. I guess if I ever find my soul mate, I just want to live life, go on adventures, etc. with that person. Shoot I don’t know I might be just thinking nonsense lol. #what2amdoestoyourbrain

Seriously man I know marriage can be difficult but spitting at each other’s face with words isn’t something a married couple should do. I know things are hard because of this business but we’re all one team…I hate to see my parents yelling at each other. It used to be sometimes..but now it seems like it’s only thing they do….God please give them stength and help them get through this. Help us

Seriously man

I know marriage can be difficult but spitting at each other’s face with words isn’t something a married couple should do. I know things are hard because of this business but we’re all one team…I hate to see my parents yelling at each other. It used to be sometimes..but now it seems like it’s only thing they do….God please give them stength and help them get through this. Help us

It’s time I think it’s time for me to stop being a lil complaining beeotch and do what I gotta do as a man. I realized that I spent my time worrying about things around me more than focusing on myself and figuring out who I am as a person. I’ve been trying to match up to other people’s expectations and standards that I forgot to match up to my own; it lead me to a place where I could have surpass the outcome but couldn’t because I stopped after I acknowledged the person’s reaction or expectation. If someone were to ask me what’s sentimental or valuable about myself, I wouldn’t be able to answer them. I can’t even find my own musical style because I try to be like the artists that I like. All my covers sound or feels different because I try to copy that artists style for that song. I need to find myself before worrying about my future or anything. Who am I. Have I become the person that I didn’t want to be? Could I find myself before this identity crisis becomes permanent? I have to find answers

It’s time

I think it’s time for me to stop being a lil complaining beeotch and do what I gotta do as a man. I realized that I spent my time worrying about things around me more than focusing on myself and figuring out who I am as a person.
I’ve been trying to match up to other people’s expectations and standards that I forgot to match up to my own; it lead me to a place where I could have surpass the outcome but couldn’t because I stopped after I acknowledged the person’s reaction or expectation.
If someone were to ask me what’s sentimental or valuable about myself, I wouldn’t be able to answer them.
I can’t even find my own musical style because I try to be like the artists that I like. All my covers sound or feels different because I try to copy that artists style for that song.
I need to find myself before worrying about my future or anything.

Who am I. Have I become the person that I didn’t want to be? Could I find myself before this identity crisis becomes permanent?

I have to find answers

Ranting again Alright. Let me get this straight… You don’t want me to take a full time office job with decent salary plus the benefit of traveling to places but want me to finish school then transfer to a university where I’ll probably have to get a loan which then I most likely will be spending most of my adulthood paying off. Is that right? I think you need to open your eyes on the fact that—yes education is crucial I know that much—experience and connection are just as important as getting a Bachelor’s or Master’s degree. If I don’t let myself get out there and experience being on my own I don’t think I’ll be living the life that you’ll be expecting me to live but rather, I’ll be living a life full of regrets. Forgive me if I sound sexist, but that might work for you because you’re a woman and if all else fails, you can just pretty up and find yourself a rich man, but for me I HAVE to be that rich man. STOP TREATING ME AS IF YOU’RE BETTER THAN ME AND AS IF I’M YOUR FUCKING CHILD GOD DAMN IT. Siblings are supposed to be supportive one another. You think you know everything, but you know what you’re just as immature and idiotic as I am. Bitch

Ranting again

Alright. Let me get this straight…

You don’t want me to take a full time office job with decent salary plus the benefit of traveling to places but want me to finish school then transfer to a university where I’ll probably have to get a loan which then I most likely will be spending most of my adulthood paying off. Is that right?

I think you need to open your eyes on the fact that—yes education is crucial I know that much—experience and connection are just as important as getting a Bachelor’s or Master’s degree. If I don’t let myself get out there and experience being on my own I don’t think I’ll be living the life that you’ll be expecting me to live but rather, I’ll be living a life full of regrets.

Forgive me if I sound sexist, but that might work for you because you’re a woman and if all else fails, you can just pretty up and find yourself a rich man, but for me I HAVE to be that rich man. STOP TREATING ME AS IF YOU’RE BETTER THAN ME AND AS IF I’M YOUR FUCKING CHILD GOD DAMN IT. Siblings are supposed to be supportive one another. You think you know everything, but you know what you’re just as immature and idiotic as I am. Bitch

Also, how pathetic is that I turn to an electronic device to rant on about my problems not a human being. What the hell have I become…

Also, how pathetic is that I turn to an electronic device to rant on about my problems not a human being.

What the hell have I become…

I don’t know what’s right or wrong, how to think straight and follow my plan anymore I know this whole new business thing was supposed to be helping our family, but sometimes I feel like it’s doing the total opposite. I know I’m supposed to help out and what not, but I feel like I’m not following my dreams or walking the path that’s supposed to lead me to it. I mean, how can I be…I can’t even think about moving out anymore because my parents seem like they’ll not do well without me under their roof. Seriously, I help them out because I love them but asking me for help with every single little doable things just make it seem like moving out and having that whole “experiencing and learning” phase impoosible to achieve. My mom yells at me when I’m going to grow up….yet, she treats me like a god damn child. I don’t think she realizes that making my own mistakes, coming up with a solution, and resolving isn’t a thing to do but not to make mistakes in the first place is the right way to go. Of course, she’s looking out for me and I’m pretty sure that she doesn’t want me to make same mistakes as she did, but fuck man seriously….because I’ve been like this my entire life, I’m scared to do anything anymore because I’m afraid I’ll make mistakes and if I do, I feel like the whole worlds gonna end. I don’t give a shit if that makes me look like a pussy but for someone who has been taught that way, it’s kind of fucking impossible for me to not feel that way. God damn it….I didn’t ask for any of this… I’d hate to be that guy…but I know I’m that guy.

I don’t know what’s right or wrong, how to think straight and follow my plan anymore

I know this whole new business thing was supposed to be helping our family, but sometimes I feel like it’s doing the total opposite.

I know I’m supposed to help out and what not, but I feel like I’m not following my dreams or walking the path that’s supposed to lead me to it.

I mean, how can I be…I can’t even think about moving out anymore because my parents seem like they’ll not do well without me under their roof.

Seriously, I help them out because I love them but asking me for help with every single little doable things just make it seem like moving out and having that whole “experiencing and learning” phase impoosible to achieve.

My mom yells at me when I’m going to grow up….yet, she treats me like a god damn child. I don’t think she realizes that making my own mistakes, coming up with a solution, and resolving isn’t a thing to do but not to make mistakes in the first place is the right way to go.

Of course, she’s looking out for me and I’m pretty sure that she doesn’t want me to make same mistakes as she did, but fuck man seriously….because I’ve been like this my entire life, I’m scared to do anything anymore because I’m afraid I’ll make mistakes and if I do, I feel like the whole worlds gonna end.

I don’t give a shit if that makes me look like a pussy but for someone who has been taught that way, it’s kind of fucking impossible for me to not feel that way.

God damn it….I didn’t ask for any of this…

I’d hate to be that guy…but I know I’m that guy.

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I’m broken. I need a glue to put myself back together. I don’t want a cheap glue that will fix me temporarily, I want a superglue that will keep me intact permanently.

I’m broken.
I need a glue to put myself back together.
I don’t want a cheap glue that will fix me temporarily, I want a superglue that will keep me intact permanently.

"dipshit"
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I came to a realization that thinking could be a bad thing. No, let me rephrase that; thinking a LOT is a bad thing. “What if I fail?” “What if I do this and this happens when that should happen? I’m not sure if I could live with myself for the rest of my life..” “Dude, no. I think that’s impossible” …. HAIL NO just do it mang. Obviously, I am not stating that an idiotic action should be taken without thinking like, “Hmm I’m only gonna be in store for couple of minutes, so I’m gonna leave my baby in the car under a hot, scorching sun I mean, what’s the harm?” That’s just stupid. No, things could be such as going to the gym and worrying about what others would think of you. Yes, that’s the key-phrase: “Thinking about what others would think of you” T H I N K I N G is your best friend, yet it could be your worst enemy ever because after all, our worst enemy is ourselves. I don’t know man this just popped into my head and you know what, I think I’m gonna live by this. Don’t think, just do. This thought process will definitely come handy in my performance opportunities hehe.

I came to a realization that thinking could be a bad thing. No, let me rephrase that; thinking a LOT is a bad thing. “What if I fail?” “What if I do this and this happens when that should happen? I’m not sure if I could live with myself for the rest of my life..” “Dude, no. I think that’s impossible”
….
HAIL NO just do it mang. Obviously, I am not stating that an idiotic action should be taken without thinking like, “Hmm I’m only gonna be in store for couple of minutes, so I’m gonna leave my baby in the car under a hot, scorching sun I mean, what’s the harm?”
That’s just stupid.
No, things could be such as going to the gym and worrying about what others would think of you. Yes, that’s the key-phrase: “Thinking about what others would think of you”
T H I N K I N G is your best friend, yet it could be your worst enemy ever because after all, our worst enemy is ourselves.

I don’t know man this just popped into my head and you know what, I think I’m gonna live by this. Don’t think, just do.

This thought process will definitely come handy in my performance opportunities hehe.